Fifty Shades of Grey.....

I began reading this book May 4th and I finished it May 8th. I probably would've finished it alot sooner if I opted it to read than sleep or go to work.

I heard about this book from a friend on a social media site. She talked about waiting for it to come from Amazon or something.

At first I wasn't sure whether to jump on the band wagon and buy the book. I've seen it in 2 bookstores.

I skimmed the first page but still wasn't about it.
The more press this book got and crazy reviews it received. I broke down and bought all 3 books. I figured it would be a early mother's day and birthday gift to myself.

Like I said before I finished the first book..... The writing was ok, the descriptions were intense. It was very easy to visualize the erotic interludes between the 2 main characters. But I must say the characters made me so damn angry. I had to put the book down a few times. I was confused by it all. The voice in my head was screaming! (Cause I didn't want to disturb my husband from doing whatever he was doing at the time.)

"What is wrong with this woman, Ana Steele! The audacity of Christian Grey bossing her around!"
I had to laugh out loud at myself for getting so involved in the story that still holds a large question mark for me.

The more lines I read. I gritted my teeth. I just kept asking myself, why is she allowing this man to control her so easily. Does she not have any self-esteem. I mean clearly she is good friend, daughter, student, etc to a fault.

I started thinking, which can be a very dangerous thing! The more I read. I started to see and feel for this young woman. She is shy, she's struggling to find out who she is and what she has to offer. She's not quite sure where she fits in with others. So she tries to blend in, into the background. Cause its easy to do and no pressure. She doesn't realize how incredible and beautiful she is inside and out. Ana is girl that everyone can talk too, lean on, asked to do favors even if she doesn't want or feel comfortable doing. She is the ultimate loving caring friend that we love to have in our lives.

How many of us feel or know people like that...

Is it possible that the Ana Steele and Christian Grey characters are a snapshot into our lives on some level. Could it be that E.L. James written something that has tapped into the deepest fears of not feeling worthy or even good enough to love with our flaws and insecurities. And finding someone who can love us despite of what we have displayed to the world to see. And tell us the picture that we think of oursleves is slightly wrong. But this is my humble opinion.

Anyways, I didn't want to like this book. I was so ready to make fun of it every which way, give it away or return it the bookstore to get my money back.
But I find myself drawn into to complicated world of Christian Grey and Ana Steele. Great escape from  my daily routines of my life. I feel like a fly on the wall in their unusual relationship.

To be continued.....